I dunno what's gonna happen next. For all I know ,  I've said what I wanna said..therefore I shouldn't be regretting this.
I chose this path and there's no way I can turn back. 
Those questions I've been bottling up..there must be a reason why last night..not a year before..nor a year before..
Not lost month,  not today,  but last night.
Whatever happened, I hoped I could be strong and be acceptance about it.
Allah has a better plan for all we know..
It could hurts much that it feels like ripping off my own heart..
Could be positive that I would crave for time to stop..
But the damage is done . I ruined the friendship. I totally screwed everything up.